Today is Friday

staring out a window
Originally uploaded by furryimportance.

I'm pretty sure that all the good things I've found in the past...mm, we'll say 3 months, have come around because I've been doing things the wrong way. I don't really care if this makes no sense to you, or you don't know what I'm referring to exactly, you're not really supposed to.

Yeah, so, I have nothing left to say on that, except that I'm suddenly in a really really good mood again and when that happens I become completely unable to function as...uhh...SEE??

Now I'm decidedly unhappy with this post as it doesn't fit in with the rest at all but I'm gonna post it anyway because I'm feeling....blargh!

Have a nice day.

Crunk...But Not!

the road is on fire
Originally uploaded by furryimportance.

Best mood ever, I swear. Like, I'm pissed, but I'm not feeling super constrained by my shyness as usual. And yes, there is one person my...anger is directed at, and I'm really disappointed that I don't see him very often.

I'm mad, but REALLY REALLY happy about it. Like I've been waiting so long to get this angry, and it's this like huge relief now that I'm finally angry!!!

I think that unless you're 100% entwined in high school drama such as I am (and not by choice), you will not understand this feeling.

As An Explanation

boy in cooler
Originally uploaded by furryimportance.

My last blog wasn't entirely un-prompted and random. I recently found out that my oldest-younger brother made a very similar mistake to mine, only a little different. So, of course, I told him a small part of my little story there. How do you make a 14-year-old butthead understand something like what I went rhough? You can't, can you?

Can We Forget About The Things I Said When I Was Drunk?

moon
Originally uploaded by furryimportance.

(At an elementary school playground late at night)

Me: Don't put your cigarette there.
Him: Why?
Me: Because. Then the principal will think the fifth graders are smoking crack, and then they'll have this big huge assembly, and they'll all get in TROUBLE.
Him: What? I can't even understand you.
Me: You're an idiot.
Him: What?!
Me: Yeah, so anyway.
Him: ...

Yes, it is indeed time to move on. I'm aware. But I can't. Even though the rational side of me is like, Hey, girl, GROSS. I hate that side of me. But at the same time, it's the one that makes me into the most stubborn drunk ever, and it's the reason I didn't make a bigger mistake than I already did.

I'm so glad that bit of my life is over. Fun while it lasted, but entirely not-worth-it.

Just A Few More Months

shoes and dr. pepper
Originally uploaded by furryimportance.

Today I realized that I only have like 3 more months of high school. Only 3 more months of dealing with minor retarded band-geek drama, and only 3 more months of being comfortable where I am. I swear I just barely got used to the campus, even though I've been here for 3 and half years already. You'd think that being a second-semester senior, I'd be dying to get out of it. And at times I am. Just right now, for the moment, I guess, I'm really quite content with everything. Well, almost. There is this one guy...I see him like every day, and I think he smiles in my general direction every day, but I've never met him, and I probably never will. But for some reason, I think that if I were to meet him, I would like love hiom for the rest of my life. He just has that...look, I guess.

I Have A Guitar

guitar
Originally uploaded by furryimportance.

Music: Everything Is Alright - Motion City Soundtrack

And I've had it since the very end of August. For the first month, I played it every day, just messing around, teaching myself new chords, picking things up from friends here and there. But then...it kind of tapered off. I quit playing it every day, because I wasn't getting anywhere. Anyway, it's been months now since the last time I picked it up. But I got guitar lessons for Christmas, I just have to schedule them.

I don't know what the point of this was other than to let you know that there is nothing that makes me sadder than one lonely guitar that sits in the corner, never getting the chance to impress someone.

-megan.

I've Been Busy

candles
Originally uploaded by furryimportance.

I recently discovered how to make the exposure times on my camera really high...and I've been messing around with it like crazy.

-megan.